Officially a Cathedral High School graduate <3
In all honesty, this is my greatest accomplishment; next stop: Pace University
And I will do it all before my 19th birthday and my first day at college
They say the best way to gain self confidence is to do what you are afraid to do…and that’s what I’m going to do!
I’m going to start living my life and not giving a fuck of what people think, but I need ideas! So send me crazy ideas and I will do them!
Like many say: YOLO!!!
But that’s okay, you get used to it after almost 19 years from always being last place or just not winning at all.
I guess I’ll never be a winner or a somebody, not even at my high school where I couldn’t even win something worth remembering… :(
My sisters are hooking me up with this guy who I don’t even know or spoken to before, and she just told I already have a date with him.
WTF man?
No one even asked for my opinion or if it’s okay with me; it’s like, “This is so and so, and you are going on a date with him!”…no ifs, ands, or buts!
What’s worse is that my mom agreed to it and she didn’t even say anything. Like hello? Don’t I get a say on this?
My sister told me some of his qualities and he’s already not my type; he’s not even cute and he’s younger than me (I really don’t like younger guys)
Plus, there’s someone else who caught my attention: no one even bothered to ask me that!
I’m feeling so awkward and uncomfortable right now. I don’t want to be rude or anything, but I just don’t want to go out with someone who I don’t know and who doesn’t know me and don’t meet my…criteria.
I really don’t know what to do…help!!!
“Your time will come”. “Everything will be okay”. “Have fun being single”. “In college, you’ll definitely find somebody”. “Don’t worry so much about that now, you have your whole life ahead of you”.
Like seriously, shut up!!!
You don’t know what it’s like to be alone all the time and not have ONE guy like you or think you’re pretty or special; they all just look at you like you’re the ugliest thing alive.
You don’t know what it’s like to be almost 19 years old and never even gone out on a date or have a guy acknowledge your presence.
You don’t know what it’s like to get out of school everyday, seeing lots of boys waiting for their girlfriends and not have anyone there for me.
You don’t know what it’s like to be rejected by so many men, so many times in my life.
All of you had happy times with your past/current boyfriends and I have none because no one is attracted to me: why do you think I stopped believing that I was beautiful? You can blame the whole male race because I don’t believe it for one bit!
I’m tired of being hurt all the time and telling me all that shit just makes me feel a hundred times worse, so please stop! Stop telling me that it’s going to happen one day because it’s never going to!
There’s obviously something wrong with me and I can never fix it, so might as well get used to it and be alone forever…
I came across this to a certain someone’s facebook tonight and I almost teared as I read this….
This is how you should treat your girlfriend:
- Put your arms around her waist and whisper in her ears,
- Kiss her every chance you get,
- Hold her close when she’s cold and she can hold you too.
- When you are alone hold her close and kiss her.
- Kiss her on the tip of her nose; (it will give her the hint that you want to kiss them).
- While in the movie, put your arm around her and then she will automatically put her head on your shoulder, then lean in and tilt her chin and kiss her lightly.
- When she complains that her neck/shoulders hurts massage it for her.
- When people diss her, stand up for her.
- Look deep into her eyes and tell her you love her.
- Lay down under the stars and put her head on your chest so she can listen to the steady beat of your heart, Link your fingers together while you whisper to her as she rests her eyes and listens to you.
Just by reading this tells me that he is the most beautiful man I have ever known, and I don’t even exist to him nor I ever will…
Every single day, I see couples being cute together, whether it’s outside of school, at work, going home, on the train/bus, on Facebook/Twitter…ANYWHERE!
And they’re holding hands, telling one another how much they love each other, laughing, kissing and hugging…as if they’re the only ones in the world.
I just don’t understand…
Why can’t I have that? Why doesn’t any guy think I’m beautiful or someone special? Also, why can’t I be like all other pretty and gorgeous girls who can easily get any guy’s attention?
I mean, come on! I’m almost 19 years old and going off to college in a few months…and I have yet to go out on a date, never been kissed, or had a boyfriend, and sometimes, that can be so embarrassing.
There are girls in my school and in my old school, way younger than me mind you, who can easily get a guy’s attention without even doing anything…WHY?
It’s like, I’m ugly, hideous, and disgusting to men: they don’t even look at me or acknowledge my existence.
People always tell me, “You’re so pretty and amazing”, “Don’t worry, your time will come soon enough”, or “God has a plan for you: he’s saving you the perfect man”…and I don’t believe any of them; I’ve been hearing that same shit for years and I’ve had enough.
I’ve come to the conclusion that I’m just not good enough and worthy enough for anyone, and it’s probably going to stay that way for the rest of my life…
